Had this rice pudding for dessert after lunch🥰
I want to gain weight.
I know that I need to.
And if it goes faster, then that’s great, it just means I’m getting healthy faster.
It doesn’t matter what I had yesterday and if what I‘m having today is more than what I was having yesterday.
Nothing of what my head is telling me matters.
My head is being a bitch because I have gained weight, but I have to remind me that that’s ok, and nobody actually cares if I weigh a few kilos more or less🤷♀️💞
It tells me to skip dinner, because I‘m not hungry, but I still need to eat it because if I don’t have it, tomorrow I‘ll think it’s ok to skip dinner too and so on...
My friends had an ice cream earlier this day again, but I couldn’t join them😩 It just wasn’t possible😟
I‘m a little bit disappointed in myself, but that’s also ok😌
Tomorrow I‘ll have a session with my therapist and finally also an appointment with my doctor, so I can finally discuss how much to eat and I think I‘m asking her if she could give me a mealplan because I just never know if I‘m having too much or not enough🥺
My day has been ok, I had a trip with my class and it was very interesting, then in the afternoon I had a music lesson🥰
Hope you all had an amazing day💘
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